Never Enough.

You wake up one morning and you feel weighed down.
You know the things in your life are not enough.
You call up a friend, she endows you with positive vibes.
You like it, you want to believe it, but that’s not enough.
You look at your table and there is a stack of unread books, they thrill you.
You want to read them.
But then you have to log in to your Facebook feed before you start your day and you see a check in of a certain person going on a solo trip or a vacay.
And now you want that.
You are tired of your books and TV shows.
You need money for a holiday.
You finally convince yourself to watch a TV show.
You start with Bojack Horseman.
Great choice, i must say.
You watch an episode about Bojack thinking about how it is never enough and Diane agreeing to the feeling and promising herself to change, to work hard and never complain.
You are inspired now and you wish to do the same.
You enter the kitchen and decide to cook and you are so proud of yourself but suddenly you realise you have nothing to wear tomorrow and again it is never enough.
You start working hard and hoping that someday it will all be fine and that someday it will be enough.
Days pass, months pass, and then a certain festival occurs.
You realise you don’t have enough money or friends or clothes.
But you live on with that too and suddenly it’s examination time and you realise your half baked knowledge isn’t enough. You are dumb and never the best and you are clearly not enough.
And that someday fades into a distance…

Years pass.
You have bought the clothes you’ve wanted to.
You have married the lover you never thought you would have.
You have a good life.
You have traveled.
You have given birth to beautiful children or have adopted adorable animals.
Your house is full of love and support.
Your someday is here.
And then you wake up one day, you look at your Facebook feed and your colleague has won an award you think you deserved and you roll back to not being enough.
You are never going to be enough.

Picture: Random frame of the setting sun metaphorically signifying how we are never satisfied with darkness or light,winter or summer,happiness or sadness. Never enough.